I was blogging this morning and realized something. I love myself and I love that. I think I'm beautiful and special and important. Not because I was brainwashed in Sunday School, not because Oprah says I have to, not because I'm an arrogant wench who has nothing better to do - just because I'm finally realizing my value as a creation.
If I were to walk into a group of women - any type and anywhere, and shared that I think - "I'm beautiful" it could bring out an interesting range of generally negative responses. "Oh really, well your thighs are..., Hmm, I see areas you could grow..., How can she say that..? "
But I wonder about the positive responses. I hope there would be some. But, if not I would be OK. I like who I'm becoming and who I am.
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I think you are beautiful as well. If I had your thighs...I would be very happy.
You are beautiful inside and outside. Sometimes that can make the rest of us want to rest in your light and put you on pedestals. And make us a little squirmish.
Your heart is on the right track. I wish at this point that I could say the same thing about myself. Thanks for sharing.
One other thing...anything we may say in a group of women will be judged by some of them...I go back and forth with that. Thinking what they might be thinking...but I am getting to the point where...who cares!
Good for you...taking charge!
doesn't really matter what everyone else thinks.
anyway... you are hot.
and yes.... also becasue i am so "butt ugly".. as my beloved brother so eloquently put it. :)
l.
Bugly. The term, my friends, is BUGLY.
Just thank the sweet Lord you're not FUGLY. That's something you'll never recover from.
You could go with Cugly. So ugly that you're cute :)
Annette
Your last comment, "I like who I'm becoming and who I am" reminded me of what St. Augustine would say to those he baptized, "Go, become who you are." As Christian's we don't have to discover or define ourselves. We are inescapably created by God as unique beings with unique purposes. In some ways this can be a very reassuring and fulfilling idea. God went to great lengths to make us unique on every level. From the shape of our toes to way we pronounce the word aluminum, God's hand was present. On the other hand, such a tailored existence comes with a great responsibility to be true to it. Think of it as being given a role in a play by the world's greatest playwright; a role written for no one else but you. It is an amazing feeling to be given such an honor, but at the same time you are now responsible for playing this role in a way that is true to the artist's vision.
it can be scary, but man is it incredible to be given such an honor as to be part of God's artistic vision! one of the most wonderful parts of life is for each of us to delve into the wondrous creations God has made us to be, to become who we are.
Dan - you and Sara are a powerful combo!
Sara - "Fugly is Fawesome." Genius!
Now - a question posed...
What do all of you think about this: Are our lives moment by moment planned by God or are we involved in a looser plan where He watches and even discovers what we will choose?
Did I just open a can of worms?
I think (and yeah this is a can of worms) that one of the hardest things to have is a good sence of self. We live in a country that says, I will be beauiful when....(fill in the blank). So to know who your maker is, and to know that you are loved by Him, and to live that out though your live is the most beauitful thing anyone person can active.
In answer to your question: yes.
I don't think that this is one of the areas where we are extremely limited as finite beings. I would say that God does not "discover" what we will choose but as far as His place in the decisions we make, it is almost impossible to speak on with any certainty. We know from Scripture that all good things that we do are the actions of the Holy Spirit in us, so we can say that God is very much working in our lives and with the decisions we make. But at the same time Scripture assures us that we have free will.
I personally don't like the sort of fatalistic view that God has a single plan for our lives and if we stray from it we are basically screwed. i knew lots of people in college who were looking for "the one" that they were supposed to marry. A lot of them really struggled with relationships and even when they were in a good relationship they wondered, "is he/she the one? Did I pick wrong? Is there a better person out there?"
I believe that in every situation and with every decision (no matter how small it is) there is a best choice but God works with us no matter what decision we make (even if its horrible). If He can turn a bunch of idol worshiping, adulterous, murderous heathens into a chosen nation, I'm sure he can make our screw ups prosper.
What a wonderful post! I have to say that I've spent much of my life not liking myself. Mostly the outer parts of me. LOL! Just recently I was thinking to myself, I know I'm not skinny, but I'm ok with that. And I don't feel ugly anymore. I'm happy that I have finally "arrived" and can accept myself for who I am. That frees me up to accomplish great things in my life. It sucks to be so self-consumed with hating myself that I cannot fully tap into the gifts that God has given me to share. I do have great things about me, darn it! And, I think it also sets a much healthier example for my little girl to not witness me being unhappy with myself.
P.S. My hubby is a dork. He can't take anything seriously...even a great heartfelt post like this one.
Well, I don't know if you're beautiful, but I'm sure you are ;) but I do know that you are VERY funny!! We're still laughing about the "swaayt taay" comment you left me!!
"is he/she the one? Did I pick wrong? Is there a better person out there?"
Basically, Dan's trying to figure out whether my incessant farting is just a foible of my personality or a sign from God that he chose the wrong bride...
Hell, I'm trying to figure out the same thing about him...
;)
Ummmm....
TMI? I thought this was a haven of poop/fart jokes??
John - the tryouts for Men In Black 14 are oh-vah!!! :)
Yer' all fine.
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Hi Beth,
I am thinking about the whole beautiful thing. I too have realized how content I am in one sense with who I am and am becoming. I don't do the whole stand in front of a mirror and pick myself apart and think if only that would change I would be beautiful, I agree with you in that I have found the beauty placed in and on me just by being a beloved daughter of a king. For me part of this feeling of being "beautiful" has come through being married to a man who leaves me no room to worry about being absolutely gorgeous to him, there has never been a moment in 8 years that I have doubted it. I think that many women in our society do not know this or expereince it but rather find that they must "keep" their husbands interest by all sorts of ways. Also when we can get to a place where we really do know God and believe what he says they we realize his love for us and that we were truly wondrefully made, all dimples and bumps included. Also I think that you should share the way you feel with other women because there may be a freedom for them to find in seeing you find it. God may use you to bring women out of bondage to a standard of beauty that is not realistic at all. He may use you to release women into their true beauty and allow them to find contentment in what God created them to be. Just some babbling for the blog...take care and we love you guys kiss those kiddies for us. Oh and we are having another boy (Aden).
Tam - I love that! Maybe I should rename the blog dimples and bumps. ;)
There is something to what you said that is key in a marraige. Consistently hearing, "You are beautiful" has been huge. Literally, once I could receive that (and continue to) it changed everything. A reprogramming of the mind, if you will.
If the mind is an organ, a muscle - What are we working it with? Truth? "My family WILL be one of love, of excellence, of CHristlike surrender..", "I am a womean of power, of destiny, of joy...", "I look for opportunities to help those around me..."
"Or do we settle for chaf-like, crap city hope diminishing thoughts? "I'm stuck." "My kids are just like...(negative whatever), "God you suck, why are our finances always down the flusher, don't you care about..."
I believe that as we choose to set our Heart on a journey towards God our our perception of Him/Her/Yahweh. We must also set our mind on that journey. Experience is huge, but often the mind is the kid left lagging behind on the child harness. It is key to join heart, mind AND soul. To put the passion into not just what can be received, not just what is convenient - but what is TRUE. Even if it is only the portion you know - to own, believe and live it passionately.
I love the firesome fusion of intellect, spiritual heart revelation and life application. It WILL CHANGE our surroundings and it WILL CHANGE us.
It;s good stuff.
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